La Dualidad de la Luz y la Oscuridad
Toda luz, aunque a veces no queramos darnos cuenta, tiene su lado obscuro. Aunque queramos tener un pensamiento positivo, siempre habrá una parte negativa que nos haga cimbrar o querer volver a aquello que nos producía la luz, la tranquilidad y la positividad que queremos. Sin obscuridad, absolutamente no hay luz, veámoslo como lo veamos. Algunos le llaman nuestro lado tenebroso, en tinieblas, o nuestro lado oscuro. The truth is that we need both sides in order to grow, we cannot escape from it. Alguien algún día dijo “sin esa oscuridad es imposible notar las estrellas” (Frase de la hija del relojero (2018) Kate Morton)
Mi oscuridad ha sido muy notaria a lo largo de los años y nunca la he negado. That does not mean people has understand it or they have been supportive about it. Pero ha estado presente en todo lo que hago. Algunas veces más fuerte e intensa que otras, pero ha marcado mi vida de una manera que nada, ni nadie lo ha hecho mejor.
Es muy difícil para mí explicarles como afecta esto en mi vida, y estas tres últimas semanas se ha intensificado de tal manera que me ha llevado dos días a la sala de emergencia con pensamientos sin esperanza y significado.
Lo único que puedo decir, es que esta amiga llamada Ansiedad no ha dejado de chingarme y quiere destruirme a como de lugar. Gracias al universo por las benditas medicinas que por fin hasta el día de ayer viernes llegaron a mi vida haciendo que esta maldita chica se vaya a descansar por un rato y me deje en paz.
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Every light, although sometimes we do not want to realize it, has its dark side. Even if we want to have a positive thought, there will always be a negative side that makes us shake or want to go back to that which produced the light, tranquility and positivity we want. Without darkness, there is absolutely no light, no matter how we look at it. Some call it our dark side, our shadow side, or our dark side. The truth is that we need both sides in order to grow, we cannot escape from it. Someone once said “without that darkness it is impossible to notice the stars” (Clockmaker’s Daughter (2018) Kate Morton quote).
My darkness has been very noticeable over the years and I have never denied it. That does not mean people have understood it or they have been supportive about it. But it has been present in everything I do. Sometimes stronger and more intense than others, but it has marked my life in a way that nothing and no one has ever done better.
It is very difficult for me to explain to you how this affects my life, and these last three weeks it has intensified in such a way that it has landed me in the emergency room for two days with hopeless and meaningless thoughts.
All I can say, is that this friend called Anxiety has not stopped screwing with me and wants to destroy me no matter what. Thank the universe for the blessed meds that finally came into my life until yesterday, Friday, making this damn girl go to rest for a while and leave me alone.
The Broken Writer 